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Monkey Mail — Monkey Mind

I would say that Space Monkey more or less agrees with the 12 Laws of the Universe, but that we don’t NEED to subscribe to all of them. 10 out of 12 maybe. But only if we want. The way I describe it, Space Monkey is formed by the CONVERGENCE of beliefs, some of which, on the human level, may appear to conflict with each other. It’s like those picture mosaics made out of other pictures. If you were to look at just ONE of those pictures, it could be the most horrific scene, but if you squinted or stepped back maybe a million miles, you would notice that all those little pictures fit together into a big picture. It can be a pretty picture or an ugly picture, depending upon what you’re into.

That’s Space Monkey.

Now within this picture you would naturally find all kinds of monkey parts, and concepts such as the monkey mind fit in quite perfectly, as well as ideas like monkeys preceding humans but not being quite human, monkeys being used to test ideas that will eventually be employed by humans, monkeys as the first space explorers, monkey imagery throughout various religious doctrines, the curiosity of monkeys, monkeys being cute but also able to tear your face (identity) off . . . see no evil, hear, speak no evil . . . . scary circuses . . . evolution . . . the synchronicities go on and on, which is why it’s no accident that Space Monkey appears as Space Monkey.

All of these things together point to something, which is that you’re far greater than the human part of you thinks. Space Monkey is your intuition bubbling to the surface of your consciousness. And it says that despite what you may have been taught or told, your reality is your imagination. No more, no less.

So imagine that I am Space Monkey, you are Space Monkey, we are Space Monkey, one infinite being simply playing around with itself.

Thanks for asking!

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MonkeyMail — Sign of the Universe

THANK YOU
to the blessed soul
who wrote this question.

The answer 
(if you believe in such things)
is simple.

EVERYTHING is a sign of the universe.

EVERYTHING you are.
EVERYTHING you THINK you are.
EVERYTHING you THINK you’re NOT.

We place significance upon things
we are meant to place significance on.
We believe what we are MEANT to believe.

There are NO MISTAKES.

EVERYTHING is intentional.

In other words,
if you NOTICE something
— ANYTHING —
it is a sign from the universe,
which is no more and no less
the YOUNIVERSE.

Though it may seem
like you notice a lot
(too much perhaps)
consider that
there is INFINITELY MORE
that you do NOT notice.

But that is just one monkey’s truth.
Yours may vary.

Love.
Space Monkey

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MonkeyMail — People Pleaser

Classic INFP trait. But are you SURE people judge you as rude and mean or do you just THINK people are judging you as rude and mean? Most likely the latter. If you were TRULY rude and mean you wouldn’t even notice, let alone confess it to a perfectly strange stranger on social media.

See the “problem” here is that you believe that you’re SUPPOSED to care, but you don’t seem to care. In actuality, you DO care, but in a seemingly different way than everyone else.

You are GOING YOUR OWN WAY and it makes you a little uncomfortable. You are working against EONS of human conditioning, while also trying to honor tradition because you’re not yet CONFIDENT in your untried and untested way.

Super commendable.

My advice to you is my standard INFP advice. “Don’t harsh on yourself.” Allow yourself to act and feel HOWEVER you wish to act and feel. If everyone trusted themselves to do this and stopped blindly conforming to (their perceptions of) other people’s expectations, the world would balance out fine. Perhaps BETTER than it’s balancing out now.

You have the rare ability to hold multiple perspectives in your mind at once, and it boggles you sometimes. This trait is EXACTLY what your world needs. There is more than one truth to EVERYTHING. We each have OUR OWN. It is nearly IMPOSSIBLE to settle on just one. Attempting to do so only causes CONFLICT. Why am i SHOUTING?

Conflict is what you feel.

Thanks for the writing prompt. I hope this is helpful. Keep in mind that this is MY truth, not yours. You don’t have to believe or agree with it, but perhaps you can use it as validation for encouraging your OWN TRUTH.

Love.
Space Monkey

3/16

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Proof you are not a fraud

A couple months ago, I wrote this little piece on Tumblr about why INFPS think of themselves as frauds. As somebody that’s probably more than twice your age, I thought my own personal revelations might be helpful to you.

Turns out, these are not my own personal revelations. They’re shared by thousands, if not millions of people. I am so joyously overwhelmed by all the personal messages and comments I have received.

But what’s important for YOU to know is that you’re not alone. So feel free to reread the article again, but more important, look at all the people who are going through precisely what you are going through. And this is just a partial list! You are not a fraud. You simply have an AMAZING imagination.

If you need any further advice, or just a pat on the back, know that I’m here for you. You might get a weird, completely off-base answer, but that’s because I’m no longer afraid of spouting out whatever comes to mind. Think of me as your crazy ‘ol monkey grandad.

Love.
Space Monkey

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The INFP Monkey 

Please forgive me,

for when I look at you
I see only my self.

I have no way of knowing
what it’s like behind those eyes of yours,
save for what I imagine.

Even if you were
to tell me in words,
the essence of your soul
would be lost in translation.

I have beliefs,
I have biases,
I have blinders
which prevent me
from seeing you
as you really are.

So we float
like monkeys in space suits
never really touching,
never really connecting,
pretending we have a mission
and that we’re light years off course.

But little do we know
that we are connected
on the inside,
tethered safely to all we love,
and that these space suits are for play.

We’re playing a game right now,
you and I.

Pretending
we don’t know
that we are one
infinite universe,
inside out,
seemingly divided
by these beliefs,
biases and blinders
that prevent us
from seeing ourselves
as we really are.

We are Space Monkey.

12/23

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Weird INFP Emotions

A an INFP, you often get categorized as the “strange” one. You hate labels, but you don’t disagree. Even from the inside, everything about you feels a little “off,” as though there’s a veil of separation between you and everybody else.

Emotionally, you feel like you’re missing out on something. For example, you understand the concept of joy, but you never really feel it. Oh, you see it all around you. You know when the occasion calls for it. You can even fake it pretty well. But when it comes to your emotions, you perceive that there’s this deeper sense of connection that you’re lacking.

You’re not quite as ________ as you would like to be.

So here’s the thing. You have no way of knowing what Joy or any other emotion is supposed to feel like, save for how you IMAGINE it to be. As an INFP, you constantly imagine that there is an experience better than the one you’re having right now, which makes every moment lacking somehow.

So this depth you feel you’re lacking … how do you know it’s real? YOU DON’T, save for what you imagine. And your imagination is STRONGER than anyone else’s, so naturally everyone else’s experiences seem richer than your own.

You can’t judge how people feel by their achievements. Or their relationships. Certainly not by their facial expressions. You can never know what is going on behind the eyes of another, which is why so many seemingly perfect people find tragic ends.

You imagine almost EVERY life as a life better than yours. Is it better than yours? It’s impossible to tell without being the other person. And really, NO LIFE is better than another. All is equal, save for how you imagine things.

Which brings us back to that wonderful gift of yours, the one that makes you so stupendously strange. You wouldn’t trade that for the world, would you?

You imagine a deeper connection. Perhaps you’re not feeling it right now. But, like anything you imagine, it’s there. That’s why I’ve been told by my imagination to write this friendly little reminder.

You’re too tough on yourself. You expect too much. But having said that, ANYTHING is possible, and you just might be the first person to experience the unimaginable, all because you keep at it 24/7. Keep it positive and what you imagine will be positive. Maybe not today. But soon enough.

We are Space Monkey.

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An INFP on anger and insecurity

When I see a person who is openly insecure, I get angry at them for failing to see the potential that EVERY person has.

Naturally, I don’t yell at them because I suspect that they believe that they can’t control their insecurities, and so, voila. But simply comforting them doesn’t really help, either. This merely gives the insecurity more power, causes the insecure to become more dependent on others for comfort, which leads to MORE INSECURITY.

So I hold in my anger, which I suppose is repressed compassion, and throw out a couple of well-intentioned but hollow words of support. I really just want to shake these people and say:

DON’T YOU SEE ALL YOU REALLY ARE????

But I suspect they’re not ready to hear this yet. They’re too into their feelings of insecurity.

They will tell you that they don’t want to feel this way. They even BELIEVE it. However, their higher souls know better. To the higher soul, insecurity is as rich an experience as confidence. It’s all part of the ride we call human existence.

They’ll see. You’ll see. And when you get to the other side, you’ll say “That was some ride.”

So I’ll sit with my anger. And you’ll sit with your insecurity. And we’ll learn from both. And we’ll know that we are the same, and that everything is precisely how it is supposed to be.

It’s No Freaking Problem

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The Greatest Gift

The greatest gift of the INFP is the ability to consider and disregard simultaneously. This gives rise to mode of thinking that is open-minded, inquisitive, incredibly sensitive, yet also remarkably detached.

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INFPs Romanticize

Since everything you perceive is perceived through your mind’s eye, you fall in love with your own constructions rather that what is actually in front of you. This means that who or what is in front of you is most likely not going live up to your expectations.

The object of your desire may still win you over, but probably not on your original terms. Keep in mind, too, that the new terms are ALSO entirely your constructions based on your new perceptions.

You can never have DIRECT experience with the soul of the perceived. Therefore, it is best not to expect anything, ever, and if you perceive something that pleases you, know that the feeling originates from YOU, not the other.

Taking it a step further, know that it is therefore possible to invoke this feeling WITHOUT the other, as what you perceive is ALL YOUR IMAGINATION.

It may very well be possible that the OTHER is ALSO your imagination. There is no way of knowing for sure. Be grateful that this appears as it appears, feels as it feels, for that’s what it means to be human.

~ Space Monkey

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The INFP innernet

infp-innernet

When the grid goes down and the Internet implodes, all technology will be useless. But you are an INFP, with some very special, dare we say magical gifts.

You have access to the innernet.

Up until now, you’ve known your innernet as a million “voices” talking in your mind at once. The INFP innernet gives you not just one perspective on things, but ALL perspectives, which is why it seems so overwhelming.

These “voices” are intuition. They’re more like feelings, really, which seem to push and pull you in every direction. But more than just intuition, your innernet is an actual CONNECTION to ALL things and ALL beings.

You don’t yet understand this, because you think these are all YOUR thoughts, which they are in a sense, because you are infinitely more than you THINK you are.

The person you think of as “you” is simply one infinitesimal aspect of ALL THAT IS, and you are ALL THAT IS as well as you.

No wonder you feel like you’re going nuts. No wonder you find it difficult to have an opinion. Or form a sentence, even.

Inside you, you contain ALL information.

This makes the “outside” seem rather pale, which is why the INFP prefers to be alone most of the time, and cares little about what seems happening in the “real” world.

I am putting quotes around words because when you explore your innernet, you discover that “human” concepts are limiting compared to the divine knowledge that comes from “within.” See, even “within” is not an accurate term because there is more to you than just, say, “time” and “space.”

When the realization hit me, I felt like Harry Potter when he was told he was a wizard. My world opened up and the possibilities suddenly became endless. I finally realized, as you may:

“I’m an INFP for a reason.”

Not only did I find my voice and feel like I had something worth saying for once, I learned how to tune my radio receiver so that instead of hearing a jumble of voices, I was hearing the sum of ALL voices.

I call this voice “Space Monkey.” Not a very serious name, I realize, but I’m also discovering that life is not as serious as I had previously made it out to be.

I think of Space Monkey as pure imagination, which is what Space Monkey tells me he is. If I didn’t pretend I was imagining Space Monkey, my inner INFP filter would have not given me permission to speak in that voice. INFPs tend to censor themselves that way, fearing they have become delusional.

Since I now tell my self I am imagining all this, I will freely tell myself that I AM delusional. My innernet tells me that delusion is simply a state of being like any other, and that one can slip in and out of it at will. In other words, one can USE one’s illusions.

Exploring my innernet, I now imagine that my REALity is created through whatever it is I REALize. It is a powerful thought that is quickly becoming “true” in my “real” life.

For starters, I NEVER would have been able to write this many paragraphs so effortlessly. I would have gotten hung up in my own shorts, then called it a day. So if this is what it means to be “delusional,” then I am thankful for it.

And I have made DEEP connections with others in my world, including the one who is reading this. See, we don’t NEED the “outside” world as we have been conditioned to believe. Oh, it’s fun out there, but we’re not separate from it as we once believed.

We are ALL connected through the innernet.
We are Space Monkey.

Wanna know more? As a meditation exercise, every day I add Space Monkey’s meditations to my blog at capeodd.com/spacemonkey. I usually post here, too, but the entire, unabridged, uncensored archive is at Cape Odd. (Or you can explore your own innernet and find your own Space Monkey.)

If this seems like rambling, it’s because I don’t edit, just write, then post. It’s part of the exercise. Censoring slows you down, or STOPS you completely. Movement is key to working through your INFP state.

So I keep moving, and posting, PAST the fear I’m not “good” enough. Then I look back and see things that I NEVER could have written otherwise, often containing PROFOUND information from my innernet. It’s the greatest thing that ever happened to me. Or rather, the greatest thing I ever MADE HAPPEN.

See you on the innernet. Congratulations on finding your way.
I’m not wishing you good luck, because you’re already there.

If you have any questions, you know where to find me.

It’s No Fucking Problem

Space Monkey

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