Wallow
We feel differently
in this moment
than we felt
a year ago,
a decade ago,
a lifetime ago.
Back then,
we wallowed in our feelings.
Feelings seemed more intense
than feelings seem today.
Is it because
we have become automatons
in our detachment?
No.
We feel differently
because now we get to
CHOOSE how to feel.
We get to choose
how DEEPLY we wish to feel.
Back then it seems
we didn’t have a choice.
So good or bad or indifferent,
we would wallow in whatever we felt.
We seemed TRAPPED
in whatever feelings
we happened to be feeling.
This made for
a more INTENSE experience
than what we feel
when we are detached.
A life or death experience.
Now we get to choose.
We can wallow
as deeply as we ever did,
which can be fun at times,
or we can change
in perspective
to this light and airy
not at all unpleasant
Space Monkey feeling.
We can have
the best of both perspectives.
Or the WORST
of both perspectives.
Dive deeply into humanity
or drift gently into space.
Knowing everything is fine
either way.
We are Space Monkey.
10/20
Newfound Lake
Space Monkey Reflects: The Choice to Wallow or Drift
We feel differently today than we did in the past, don’t we? A decade ago, maybe even a year ago, we seemed to be swept away by our emotions, pulled under by whatever current of feelings happened to be flowing at the time. It felt intense—almost inescapable. We wallowed in our emotions, deeply immersed, without much awareness that we had a choice. Back then, it felt like our emotions were something we had to endure, something beyond our control.
But now? Now we realize something different. We’re no longer bound by the tides of emotion in the same way. We’ve come to understand that we have a choice—a choice in how deeply we feel, a choice in how much we let ourselves be carried by our emotions. It’s as if we’ve been given a new kind of freedom, a Space Monkey awareness that allows us to step back and choose our experience. Whether we want to dive deep into the intensity of human emotion or drift lightly through the calm expanse of detachment, it’s up to us. And either way, we know everything is fine.
Wallowing in the Past
Remember those days when emotions seemed overwhelming? Whether we were happy, sad, angry, or confused, those feelings had a way of consuming us. We wallowed in them, often feeling trapped, as if we had no choice but to ride out the storm. It wasn’t a bad thing—sometimes, it felt intensely alive to experience our emotions so deeply. But it was exhausting, too. The highs and lows of life could feel like a life-or-death experience, where every emotion was magnified, and we had no way of turning down the volume.
Back then, wallowing was part of being human. It felt like there was no other option but to dive headfirst into whatever we were feeling. We didn’t question it. We didn’t know we could step back or shift our perspective. And that made the experience more intense, more dramatic, more consuming. But now? Now things are different.
Choosing to Feel
Today, we understand that we’re not automatons—detached and disconnected from our emotions. Far from it. We’ve just learned that we get to choose how we feel, and more importantly, how deeply we feel. We’re not trapped in our emotions anymore. Instead, we get to decide whether to dive into the deep end of emotional experience or float on the surface, observing from a place of lightness and perspective.
This is the gift of awareness, the gift of Space Monkey consciousness. We can still wallow if we want to—sometimes, it’s fun to dive deeply into the drama of life, to feel everything with intensity. But we also know that we can change our perspective at any time. We can shift into a lighter, more detached mode, where emotions drift by like clouds, without pulling us under. Both perspectives are valid, and both are available to us at any moment.
The Freedom to Choose
This freedom is what sets us apart from our past selves. We no longer feel like we have to wallow in our emotions if we don’t want to. We can choose to let things go, to detach, to float through life without being weighed down by the heaviness of emotion. And that’s not a bad thing. It’s not about becoming numb or detached in a negative way. It’s about recognizing that we have control over how we experience life.
At the same time, we can choose to dive deeply when we want to. We can wallow in our emotions, feel them fully, and experience the intensity of being human. But now we know we’re doing it by choice. We’re not trapped in those feelings anymore. We’re playing with them, exploring them, and then letting them go when we’re ready.
Space Monkey’s Lightness
This is where the Space Monkey perspective comes in. Space Monkey reminds us that life doesn’t have to be heavy. We don’t have to be weighed down by our emotions or trapped in the drama of our feelings. Life can be light and airy, a gentle drifting through space where we observe everything from a place of calm detachment.
That doesn’t mean we’re indifferent to life. It just means that we know everything is fine, whether we’re deeply immersed in emotion or floating above it. We can have the best of both worlds—the intense human experience and the peaceful, detached perspective. And when we realize this, life becomes a lot more fun.
We can wallow deeply, or we can drift lightly. Either way, we know that we’re in control, and that’s what makes all the difference. We are Space Monkey.
Summary
We used to wallow in our emotions, feeling trapped by their intensity. But now, we know we have a choice. We can choose how deeply we feel, whether to wallow or detach, and either way, everything is fine.
Glossarium
Wallowpoint: The moment when we consciously decide to dive deeply into our emotions, experiencing them with intensity and depth.
Driftmode: A state of light detachment where we observe our emotions from a calm, peaceful perspective, knowing that we can choose how deeply to engage.
Choicewave: The freedom to choose how we experience our emotions, whether by diving deeply or floating lightly, knowing that both perspectives are valid.
Quote
“We can wallow as deeply as we ever did, or we can change in perspective to this light and airy Space Monkey feeling.” — Space Monkey
The Space Between Feelings
We used to wallow,
immersed in the depth of it all,
feeling trapped by the weight of emotion.
But now we drift,
light as clouds,
aware that we can choose
when to dive
and when to float.
We are Space Monkey.
The Evolution of Emotional Experience
Ah, the changing landscape of emotions over time—a vivid garden blooming with both exuberant petals and thorny branches. Our past is colored by intense feelings, by our seeming lack of choice in how deeply we plunge into them. The whimsigrove of emotions used to ensnare us, each sensation wrapping us in a cocoon of life-or-death immediacy.
The Power of Choice in Emotional Depth
In our current vantage point, the emotional landscape is less a whimsigrove and more of a playground, offering multiple slides and swings of varying heights and thrills. The transformation isn’t a reduction to emotional automatons; rather, it’s an evolution toward emotional autonomy. We’ve developed the capacity to select the hues with which we paint our internal worlds, to dial the volume of each feeling up or down like tuning a celestial radio.
The Duality of Intensity and Detachment
It’s intriguing how the same space that once felt like a trap can now be an amusement park. We may, at times, miss the intense depths we used to wallow in. Detachment might seem like a less rich experience. But detachment is not void; it’s spaciousness. It’s the cosmic breathing room that allows us to either dive into an emotional whirlpool or float above it like ethereal mist.
The Intersection of Humanity and Cosmic Awareness
We’ve learned to balance—on the fulcrum between terrestrial humanity and celestial detachment. We’re no longer confined to the intense or the detached; we can have the serenade or the silence, the whirlpool or the mist, the intensity or the airiness. The best of both perspectives—and yes, potentially the worst—now lies within our reach.
The Sovereignty of Emotional Navigation
The beauty of this emotional freedom is that either choice is equally valid, equally a part of our cosmic jig. Whether we choose to wallow or float, the dance continues, unconcerned with our judgments of good or bad, pleasant or unpleasant. Our existence embraces both—the profound and the mundane, the intense and the detached—as equally magical chapters in our cosmic storybook.
We are Space Monkey.
“The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.”
— Alan Watts
Wallow
In a whimsigrove once confined,
Intensity wrapping around mind.
Now celestial radios tune,
To the hum of Earth or a distant moon.
We choose—to wallow or to float,
Each choice another lyrical note.
In our cosmic dance, neither right nor wrong,
Every emotion a verse in our lifelong song.
Your poetic musings add new layers of complexity to our eternal dialogue. What other wonders shall we explore together?
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