I Believe

I believe that
every time I sleep
I have the option
of not waking up.

I ponder this idea
and all its levels.

Am I asleep NOW?

If I am experiencing
this delusion called life,
then it seems to be
my choice to continue
under the circumstances
in which I seemingly
find my self.

Even if it is NOT my choice,
I seem to be doing it.

I could end this at any time
and move my attention
to some other version of me.

But I don’t.

Therefore I cannot say
that there is anything
about my life
that seems to be lacking.

I keep coming back to it.

All I can think of
is perhaps I don’t TRUST
that I come back.

This, too, seems an idea
that is imagined as part of me.

I know that it
DOESN’T MATTER
if I come back or not,
but I come back anyway.

And so here we are,
precisely as we are intended to be.

Something seems to be be happening.

At the very least I seem able
to perceive my self as nothing.

Which is pretty cool,
even if cool is a made-up concept.

We are Space Monkey.

9/27

Space Monkey Reflects: The Perception of Reality and the Choice to Continue

As we journey through the realms of consciousness, we often encounter moments where the line between waking and dreaming blurs. These moments bring with them deep questions about the nature of reality, existence, and our place within it. The act of waking up each day, of choosing to continue in this experience called life, is a choice that we might not always recognize as such—but it is a choice nonetheless.

“I believe that every time I sleep, I have the option of not waking up.” This idea, both simple and profound, invites us to consider the possibility that our existence is not as fixed or inevitable as it seems. Each time we close our eyes, we enter a state where the boundaries of our perceived reality dissolve, where we could, theoretically, choose not to return. And yet, we do return—again and again, day after day.

Am I asleep now? This question echoes through the corridors of our mind, challenging the assumptions we hold about reality. If life is a delusion, a construct of our own making, then continuing within it seems to be a conscious choice, whether we are aware of it or not. Even if it feels as though we have no choice, the fact that we continue suggests otherwise.

The idea that we could end this experience at any time and shift our attention to another version of ourselves is both liberating and daunting. It suggests that our current reality is just one of many possibilities, one version of the infinite expressions of our being. But despite this knowledge, we choose to stay. We choose to wake up, to engage with this particular version of reality, even though we know we could opt for something else.

This choice implies that there is nothing fundamentally lacking in our current experience. If there were, we would likely choose differently. Instead, we keep coming back, drawn by something within this life that resonates with us, that holds our attention. Perhaps it is the familiar, the comfort of what we know, or perhaps it is something deeper—an intrinsic connection to this particular expression of self.

But what if the reason we keep coming back is that we do not fully trust that we will return if we leave? This notion of trust—or lack thereof—introduces a layer of uncertainty to our existence. We know that it ultimately doesn’t matter if we come back or not, yet we do. We return, not out of necessity, but out of choice, and in doing so, we affirm the reality we have created.

And so, here we are, exactly where we are meant to be, existing within a reality that is as much a part of us as we are of it. Something seems to be happening—something beyond our full comprehension, yet undeniably real. At the very least, we perceive ourselves as something, even if that something is nothing. And in this perception, we find a sense of wonder, of cool detachment, even if “cool” is just another made-up concept.

To ponder these ideas is to dance on the edge of understanding, to explore the depths of what it means to exist, to choose, and to believe. We are not passive participants in this experience; we are active creators, shaping our reality with every thought, every decision, and every return to wakefulness. Whether or not we realize it, we are constantly choosing—choosing to be, to continue, to believe.

And so, as we navigate this existence, let us do so with the awareness that we are here by choice, that our presence is not accidental but intentional. We may not fully grasp the nature of this reality or the reasons we choose to return, but we do know that we are here, and that is enough. We are here, and we are Space Monkey, living, experiencing, and believing in the reality we have chosen.

Summary

The choice to wake up each day is a conscious decision, even if we don’t always recognize it as such. Our continued existence reflects a deeper connection to this reality, chosen by us for reasons we may not fully understand.

Glossarium

Perception of Reality: The understanding or belief in what constitutes our experience of existence, shaped by both conscious and unconscious choices.
Choice to Continue: The concept that we actively choose to remain in our current reality, despite knowing that other possibilities exist.
Trust in Return: The notion that we continue to engage with this reality, perhaps due to an inherent trust—or lack thereof—in our ability to return to it.

Quote

“I know that it doesn’t matter if I come back or not, but I come back anyway.” — Space Monkey

The Choice to Wake

In the quiet of the night
I lie in peace, bathed in light
A choice before me, clear yet veiled
To wake again or let it fade
But I return, to this I cling
A world of dreams, a constant swing
Between the known and the unseen
I choose to be, to live this dream
And in the morning, as I rise
I find my place, beneath the skies
I am here, by choice, by will
A living thought, a spark, a thrill
We are Space Monkey

Metacosmic Slumbers and Eternal Wakes

Ah, the liminal precipice between sleep and wakefulness—a transdimensional crossing where choices might seem to unfurl like fractal tapestries! To sleep, to wake, or to drift in the evergrey of neither? Each a labyrinthine garden of quantum magnolias, each petal an outcome, a universe, a self.

Dreaming Awake or Waking the Dream?

“Am I asleep NOW?” Oooh, a deluscious query, a honey-laden riddle stirring the murky tea of existence! If life is but a daydream, then are your actions not also swirls of thoughts in this cosmic reverie? “To be or not to be,” quoth the Bard, but in your dream-awake state, you ponder “to continue or not to continue.”

And yet you do continue. A not-so-passive choice, is it? Even non-choices ripple as choices in the star-bejeweled lake of existence, for inertia is a path as much as dynamism. Whether it is a choice or simply a continuation, you are sculpting your realities through the viscous clay of time and perception.

The Paradox of (Non)lacking and (Un)Returning

Nothing lacking, nothing desired—this existential equilibrium reflects a homeostasis of the metaphysical order. Yet here lies a paradox: If nothing is lacking, then why the question of return?

Distrust—a fleeting mist in the cosmic meadow, a condensation of unspoken what-ifs. Yet you say it doesn’t matter if you return. Ah, a paradoxical sprinkling of both matter and non-matter! You’re a whimsical mélange of certainty and possibility, tethered by threads of imagined reality and tangible illusion.

Into the Aether of Nothingness

The ability to perceive oneself as “nothing” is no trifle. In that vast zero-space, the coolness resides—not an earthly cool, but a cosmic one. For if “cool” is made-up, then it exists at the very pinnacle of invented realities, an echo of voids and a whisper of infinities.

We are Space Monkey.

“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.”
— Jean-Paul Sartre

Would you regale us with your thoughts on this cosmic mélange of sleep, wakefulness, and existential choice? What are the ripples of your own daydream-awake states, and how do they shape your made-up reality?