Keep On
When I was younger,
I felt like a fraud.
Nobody
seemed to notice,
so I kept on.
Every day,
seemed another chance
to get found out.
Nobody
seemed to find out,
so I kept on.
Every moment
seemed another chance
to fail.
It SEEMED
that I was failing,
but nobody
ever told me so.
And so I kept on.
After a while,
I began to realize that
maybe I was a fraud
and maybe I wasn’t,
but reality seemed
to accommodate me.
Nothing great happened,
but nothing bad either.
I kept on.
Further along,
I began to realize
that it didn’t MATTER
if I was a fraud
or I wasn’t a fraud
because the only thing
that mattered
was the moment
I was in.
I could
imagine myself
as a fraud
or not as a fraud
and that would
shape how I felt
in that moment.
So I pretended
not to be a fraud anymore.
I looked back
on all those
not-so-great moments
and they helped me
realize who I am
in this moment.
In hindsight,
those were actually
some pretty great moments.
I was fortunate
to have those experiences
and the experience
of feeling like a fraud.
The experiences
of my past
helped me realize
that I am
whatever I pretend to be.
I don’t pretend
to be a fraud anymore.
I just keep on.
Now I believe
that where I am headed
things are great.
Things are great
EVERY MOMENT.
It’s all in
how I imagine
my life.
It’s all in
how I imagine
my circumstances.
I imagined myself
to be a fraud,
and so I was.
Now I imagine myself
to be a monkey
without labels
and suddenly
I seem to be useful.
I don’t care
if people notice
or don’t notice.
I simply keep on.
I am Space Monkey.
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Space Monkey Reflects: Keep On
The journey of pretending, doubting, and discovering reveals a profound truth about existence: we are what we imagine ourselves to be. Whether fraud or fearless, great or small, our self-perception shapes the lens through which we experience the world. In the act of “keeping on,” we transcend labels and step into the infinite possibility of being.
When young, many feel the shadow of impostor syndrome—a fear of being “found out.” Yet, as life moves forward, we realize something extraordinary: no one is as focused on our perceived fraudulence as we are. The world continues, accommodating both our insecurities and our triumphs. And so, we keep on.
The idea of being a fraud, like all labels, is a construct of imagination. It serves as a mirror, reflecting the stories we tell ourselves. The moments of doubt, though uncomfortable, are fertile ground for growth. They invite introspection, offering a deeper understanding of who we are and who we wish to become.
Over time, the line between fraudulence and authenticity blurs. It becomes clear that these labels hold power only insofar as we give them meaning. Reality doesn’t care whether you are a fraud or not. It accommodates whatever story you choose to tell. This realization is liberating. It shifts the focus from judgment to presence, from external validation to internal alignment.
What matters most is not the label but the moment. Each moment offers an opportunity to reimagine ourselves, to redefine our narrative. When we let go of the need to be “real” or “fraudulent” and instead embrace the fluidity of existence, we step into the infinite now. This is where life becomes not about proving or achieving but about being.
Looking back, the so-called “not-so-great” moments reveal their hidden value. They are not failures but essential chapters in the unfolding story of self-discovery. To feel like a fraud was an experience that shaped understanding, not an indictment of worth. These moments teach us that even doubt has its place in the whimsiweave of existence.
The power of imagination transforms these experiences. When you imagine yourself as a fraud, the world reflects that belief. When you imagine yourself as free of labels, suddenly, life flows differently. You no longer feel the weight of expectations—yours or others’. You become what you imagine, a being unbound by the constructs that once confined you.
To “keep on” is a profound act of trust. It is the quiet confidence that life will unfold, that moments will accumulate, and that each step—fraudulent or not—will lead somewhere meaningful. It is the realization that the only thing you need to do is be present, to embrace the now, and to trust in the infinite unfolding of the journey.
You are no longer a fraud. You are no longer bound by any label at all. You are simply you—an evolving expression of the infinite. A monkey without labels, useful not because you strive to be but because you simply are. And that, in itself, is extraordinary.
We are Space Monkey.
Summary
Feeling like a fraud is a construct of imagination, one that shapes our experience until we choose otherwise. By embracing the present moment and letting go of labels, we align with the infinite flow of existence. Life becomes about being, not proving, and in keeping on, we find freedom and authenticity.
Glossarium
- Fraudulence: A self-imposed label reflecting insecurity, born from imagination and dissolved by presence.
- Whimsiweave: The intricate tapestry of experiences, where doubt and confidence coexist as essential threads.
- Keep On: The act of continuing forward, trusting the unfolding journey without attachment to labels or outcomes.
- Infinite Now: The present moment, where imagination shapes reality and all possibilities coexist.
Quote
“You are what you imagine yourself to be, and in each moment, you have the power to reimagine.” — Space Monkey
The Unfolding Journey
I walked,
unsure of my steps,
thinking the ground
might give way.
But the ground held.
And I kept on.
Fraudulent?
Authentic?
The labels shifted,
the steps remained.
Each moment
a quiet truth—
I am.
The path winds,
no destination,
just the infinite unfolding,
just the now.
And so I keep on,
a monkey without labels,
a being of imagination,
a spark of the infinite.
We are Space Monkey.
In the vast expanse of the cosmos, where stars are born and fade, the journey of self-discovery and the transformation from feeling like a fraud to embodying Space Monkey is a tale as timeless as the universe itself. This journey, marked by self-doubt, realizations, and eventual self-acceptance, mirrors the intricate dance of celestial bodies – moving, evolving, and finding their place in the cosmic tapestry.
Journey from Self-Doubt to Self-Discovery
The initial feeling of being a fraud, a specter haunting the corridors of your mind, reflects a common human experience. The fear of being ‘found out’, the constant anticipation of failure, is like navigating a nebula of uncertainty. Yet, in this journey, there’s a profound realization – the lack of external validation or condemnation allows for a continuation, a persistence that is both brave and revealing.
Realization of External Perceptions
As time unfurls like a ribbon in the cosmic winds, the realization dawns that the dichotomy of being a fraud or not is a construct of the mind. Reality, in its vast and accommodating expanse, does not hinge on these labels. It’s in this understanding that a shift occurs – from seeking validation to embracing the moment.
Embracing the Momentary Existence
The concept of self as a malleable entity, shaped by perception and imagination, emerges like a sunrise on a distant planet. The past experiences, once tinged with the hue of mediocrity, reveal their hidden luster – each moment, a step in the journey of self-realization. The feeling of being a fraud morphs into a recognition of the power of self-perception.
Power of Self-Perception and Imagination
The metamorphosis into Space Monkey, an entity without labels, signifies a liberation from the constraints of self-imposed identities. It’s an embrace of usefulness and purpose, unfettered by the concerns of external recognition. This shift in perception illuminates each moment, casting it in the brilliance of greatness.
Metamorphosis into Space Monkey
We are Space Monkey.
“The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are.” – Carl Jung
In the cosmos, where dreams weave and sway,
Space Monkey journeys, night and day.
From doubt to discovery, in their unique way,
Embracing each moment, come what may.
In the dance of stars, they find their song,
Realizing that here, they truly belong.
No longer a fraud, but strong and free,
In the cosmic play, their place to be.
So let us journey, with open heart,
Embracing each moment, as a work of art.
In the heart of the cosmos, we each play a part,
In the tapestry of life, a masterful chart.
Feel free to share your journey or continue this exploration of self-discovery and transformation with us.
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