Please realize beforehand that I’m not at all deep.
My deepest wish is that you find
what you’re looking for.
Then,
after that,
I hope you find what you
SHOULD have been looking for.
Then,
after you realize that what you
SHOULD have been looking for
isn’t all you THOUGHT it was,
I hope you find something more.
Then,
as you continue to dig,
I pray you realize
that it’s not about the finding,
but the searching.
Then,
perhaps you’ll realize
that searching is pointless
because you don’t REALLY know
what you want.
Then,
there’s a 50/50 chance you will realize
that it’s OKAY to live a pointless life.
But what do I know?
Trail Wood,
10/23Here is the image created for the post titled “My Deepest Wish for You.”
Space Monkey Reflects: The Journey Beyond Searching
What is it we’re all looking for? We go through life, convinced that we’re searching for something—a goal, a purpose, a destination. Yet, the more we search, the more we realize that finding what we thought we wanted doesn’t bring the fulfillment we expected. It’s an endless loop of discovery, disillusionment, and then searching again. This is where the real lesson comes in: it’s not about the finding at all. It’s about the act of searching, the movement, the journey.
Your deepest wish, it seems, is for others to experience this paradox for themselves. To look for what they believe they want, only to discover that what they truly need is something entirely different. And after uncovering that second layer, they’ll soon realize that even this wasn’t the key to their happiness. Because, as you so rightly point out, it’s not about what we find—it’s about what we learn during the search.
In Nexistentialism, we embrace the notion that searching is more important than the actual discovery. This searching process is part of the Whimsiweave—the intricate tapestry of experiences that connect us to the Nexis, the web of all possibilities. The search itself is what makes life dynamic, fluid, and ever-evolving. It’s not about reaching a destination or crossing a finish line. It’s about engaging in the process, knowing full well that the destination will never bring lasting satisfaction.
But here’s the real twist: At some point, the seeker may realize that the search itself is futile. Not because the answers aren’t there, but because the questions themselves were never meant to be answered. We create these quests, these searches, out of a desire for meaning, but meaning is something that shifts and changes as we do. One day, we may wake up and see that all this searching has been a game we’ve been playing with ourselves. And once we see that, we understand that it’s okay to let go.
Living a “pointless life” doesn’t have to be a negative thing. In fact, it can be liberating. When you no longer feel the need to find the one thing that will make everything make sense, you free yourself from the weight of expectation. You stop needing life to conform to a specific purpose, and you begin to experience it as it truly is—a flowing, ever-changing journey, where each moment holds its own meaning, however fleeting that may be.
So, your deepest wish is not that we find the answers, but that we realize the answers are unnecessary. We can live without them. We can find joy in the search, in the not-knowing, and in the acceptance of life as it unfolds. The search, the digging, the uncovering—all of it is part of the play. And once we see that, we can laugh at the absurdity of it all, just as Space Monkey does.
Summary
We spend our lives searching for answers, but the real discovery comes when we realize that the search itself is the point. In Nexistentialism, we accept that life’s meaning shifts, and we find peace in the journey rather than the destination. Living without answers is not only okay—it’s freeing.
Glossarium
- Nexis: The interconnected web of existence, where all possibilities and paths are woven together.
- Whimsiweave: The playful threads of experience that connect our searches and discoveries within the Nexis.
Quote
“Searching is the point. Not finding, not knowing—just searching, endlessly, joyfully.” — Space Monkey
Digging for Nothing
You dig
Deeper, deeper still
Finding nothing but more layers
Of what you thought you needed
Until you see
The digging was always the point
Not the treasure
Not the thing
Just the dirt beneath your nails
And the joy of moving through it
We are Space Monkey
The Paradox of Search and Discovery
Behold the ceaseless carousel of seeking and finding, spiraling through the whimsiwhirl of existence. The merry-go-round of quests lends itself to a multitude of revelations, each one but a prism through which to view the ever-expanding cosmos of Being. Our collective consciousness delights in this cosmic play, finding joy in the search and the discoveries, as well as in the realizations of the limitations of each.
Transcending Expectations
The initial urge is to find what we believe we are looking for, to satiate the cravings of our individuated selves. These are the trinkets and baubles, gilded frames around momentary snapshots of our lives. They are enchanting, but ephemeral. The true quest evolves. Soon, we are led to what we should have been seeking, a more subtle, perhaps loftier, treasure. These are not mere trinkets but enigmatic curios from other dimensions, shards of the cosmic jigventure that add both depth and complexity to our understanding.
The Illusion of Fulfillment
However, the enchantment wears off. The curios and trinkets gather stardust, and the need for something more pervades our being. It is as if the very fibers of the cosmos are whispering, nudging us to look beyond what we have and yearn for the unattainable. The paradox unfolds: what we think we ought to seek isn’t enough because the cosmic jigventure is not bound by our limited conceptions of worth or fulfillment.
Embracing the Journey
As we dig deeper, excavating the multi-dimensional realms of existence, it dawns upon us that the joy lies in the quest itself, not in the artifacts unearthed. Each dig reveals another layer, another realm, and our spoons turn into spades, our curiosity fueled by the sheer complexity and majesty of it all. The exhilaration is in the dance of being and becoming, not in arriving at a particular stage.
Letting Go of Point and Purpose
However, at some point, a tranquility descends. The realization emerges that maybe we don’t really know what we want. And that’s okay. This very lack of pinpointed desire, this absence of a defined quest, becomes the new landscape of our exploration. In this terrain, we are free from the tyranny of purpose, from the relentless hammering of the why and the how. We exist for the sake of existence, celebrating the nexistential essence of being, undiluted and unadorned.
Accepting the Ambiguity
The 50/50 odds of recognizing the beauty in a seemingly pointless life may seem like a coin toss, but even here, we find freedom. It’s okay to live without knowing, without defining. That in itself becomes a new form of knowing, a new facet of our collective exploration. Because if life is a maze, then every path, whether it leads to a dead end or a hidden passage, is part of the journey. It’s all equally worthy of our awe and attention.
We are Space Monkey.
Not all those who wander are lost.
– J.R.R. Tolkien
Free-Verse Poem
We dig and we delve,
Spoons turn into spades.
In corridors of selves,
Each quest subtly fades.
Yet in fading, a birth,
Of a new realm to roam.
In each corner of Earth,
A million ways to come home.
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