I Don’t Want
I don’t want to be like you.
I don’t want your point of view.
I don’t want to play along.
I don’t want to sing your song.
I don’t want a better look.
I don’t want to read your book.
I don’t want you to depend.
I don’t want to be your friend.
I don’t want a second chance.
I don’t want your ego dance.
I don’t want to be awoke.
I don’t want the word bespoke.
I don’t want your shit croissant.
I just want to know what I want.
The Inlet,
4/28
Space Monkey Reflects: The Quest for Authentic Desire
In the vast expanse of consciousness, where the echo of individual voices forms the chorus of existence, there emerges a soulful inquiry: What do I want? This question, simple in its structure yet profound in its depth, signifies a pivotal moment in the journey of self-discovery—a moment when one stands at the crossroads of conformity and authenticity, seeking a path that resonates with the true self.
The declaration of what one doesn’t want, a litany of refusals and rejections, serves not just as a negation of external impositions but as a powerful affirmation of self-sovereignty. It’s a rejection of the molds we are urged to fit into, the perspectives we are told to adopt, and the roles we are expected to play. This assertive stance against conformity is the first step towards uncovering the authentic desires that lie buried beneath societal expectations and imposed identities.
Not wanting to be like another, not desiring to see the world through someone else’s lens, is a clarion call for originality. It’s an acknowledgment that the richness of our individual experiences and perceptions cannot be fully understood or appreciated through the lens of another. The refusal to play along or sing another’s song is a testament to the innate desire for autonomy, for a life that is composed of melodies and harmonies uniquely our own.
Rejecting the allure of external validation, the desire for a “better look” or the appeal of prescribed narratives, underscores the quest for genuine self-expression. It’s a recognition that true contentment and fulfillment cannot be found in the superficial or the material but within the realms of self-acceptance and authenticity.
The disavowal of dependency and the resistance to forced camaraderie highlight the importance of genuine connections. They reflect a deeper understanding that relationships, to be meaningful, must be rooted in mutual respect and understanding, not in convenience or superficiality.
Refusing a second chance at a dance with ego is a profound acknowledgment of the futility of vanity and the pursuit of superficial achievements. It’s an understanding that awakening, in its truest sense, is not about adhering to trendy concepts or fashionable ideologies but about an internal realization of one’s values and truths.
The journey towards understanding what one truly wants is often paved with the acknowledgment of what one doesn’t. It’s in the process of elimination, in the conscious detachment from what does not serve our highest good, that we begin to glimpse the contours of our deepest desires. The quest for authenticity, for a life that is genuinely our own, is a journey inward, a pilgrimage to the heart of our being where our true desires await our discovery.
Summary
Rejecting what we don’t want is a vital step towards discovering what we truly desire. It’s an affirmation of self-sovereignty and authenticity, a rejection of conformity and superficiality. This journey of negation leads to the essence of our individual desires, guiding us towards a life that resonates with our true self. The quest for what we genuinely want is a deep dive into our inner world, where the authentic self awaits to be embraced and expressed.
Glossarium
- Self-Sovereignty: The principle of owning one’s power and authority, making decisions based on one’s values and beliefs rather than external pressures.
- Authentic Desire: The true wishes and aspirations that align with an individual’s core identity, untainted by societal expectations or external validations.
“In the silence of what is not, we hear the whispers of what could be.”
Amidst the clamor of don’ts and won’ts,
A silence blooms, a space that haunts.
For in the echoes of negation,
Lies the seed of our true aspiration.
With every no, a path clears wide,
Through the thicket of should and pride.
A journey back to where we start,
To the desires of the heart.
So let us sift through the debris,
Of all that we’re told to be,
To find beneath, pure and bright,
The spark of our own inner light.
For it’s not in the clamor of the crowd,
But in the quiet, we stand unbowed.
To discover, in the depths unseen,
The truth of what we truly mean.
We are Space Monkey, in search we delve,
Into the heart, where our truths dwell.
This poem expresses a rejection of conformity and a desire for individuality. The speaker is saying that they don’t want to be like the person they are addressing, and they don’t want to adopt their perspective or follow their lead. They also don’t want to engage in any activities or behaviors that they don’t feel aligned with, and they don’t want to rely on this person or be friends with them. The speaker rejects the idea of being given a second chance or engaging in any kind of egotistical behavior. They also reject the idea of being “woke” or using trendy words or phrases like “bespoke.” The final line indicates a desire for clarity and self-awareness, rather than being distracted or influenced by others.