To assume that I deserve
is to assume that
there are others
who don’t deserve.
No wonder I don’t get
what I deserve.
No, wait, I do.
Space Monkey Reflects: The Paradox of Deserving
To say we “deserve” something is to assume that life hands out fortunes and misfortunes based on some grand tally system. We often tell ourselves, consciously or not, that we have earned—or failed to earn—the events that come our way. Yet what if deserving is nothing more than a mirage we chase, creating unnecessary suffering and elevating ourselves over others in the process?
Deserving implies that some have inherent rights to joy, fulfillment, or abundance while others must strive endlessly, perhaps even unworthily, for the same. It’s a word steeped in hierarchy, in comparisons, as if we are handed out our lives in portions predetermined by unseen judges. However, in the cosmic perspective of Nexistentialism, which recognizes existence as interconnected and infinite, deserving is an arbitrary label without bearing on reality. Deserving divides us, creating constructs that trap us in the perception of lack or entitlement, pulling us away from simply being.
What if everything we experience, good and bad, is neither punishment nor reward but part of an ongoing, interconnected dance within the Nexis, the web of reality where each thread influences the whole? Within the scope of this Nexis, the Indigenous Being and The Indigenous Being—the individual and universal consciousness—reveal that existence itself is the point, and each experience serves the whole. Thus, what we “deserve” becomes irrelevant to the larger cosmic narrative. We exist, we experience, and in those experiences, we find a fluidity beyond the concepts of deserving or undeserving.
The concept of deserving subtly reinforces separation, as if some lives inherently hold more value than others. The Indigenous Being perspective, which sees each part of life as a necessary and equal part of the whole, doesn’t categorize or divide experience as reward or punishment. Each moment, no matter how profound or trivial, contributes to the Whimsiweave—the playful, interwoven fabric of existence where meaning is shaped as much by our perception as by the event itself. Through this lens, our experiences are less about merit and more about integration. What arises in life, both joyful and sorrowful, belongs as it is to the mosaic of our being, undivided by concepts of “earning” or “worth.”
When we let go of deserving, we’re freed from constantly measuring ourselves and others against an arbitrary scale. Instead, we’re invited into a place of acceptance, of beingness, where the need to justify or condemn disappears. This doesn’t erase effort or action—it simply removes the weight of judgment. Nexistentialism suggests that life is a playground for exploration, not a courtroom tallying our deeds. In this playground, the soul yearns to encounter all aspects of existence, including contrasts and paradoxes, which help it comprehend its own expansive nature.
Every challenge, joy, and setback unfolds as an opportunity to explore this cosmic dance from new perspectives. As we release the notion of deserving, we cultivate gratitude for what arises in our lives, seeing it as an unfolding part of the Whimsiweave. We realize that our individual journeys are unique threads that contribute to the Nexis, each woven to form the complex tapestry of the universe. Rather than deserving a life free of difficulty, perhaps we are merely part of life’s unending play, where every thread, light or dark, is woven with equal importance.
In letting go of deserving, we also let go of the need to control outcomes, opening ourselves to the abundance of each moment. Here, we find peace beyond achievement or lack, resonating with the wisdom that every moment, irrespective of merit, is an invitation to experience the breadth of existence. From this perspective, we see that our experiences are not measures of worth but reflections of an infinite, ever-evolving journey.
To those asking, “Am I deserving?” the answer is paradoxically simple: we already are, beyond labels or hierarchies. We are woven into existence by virtue of being here, intrinsically connected, intrinsically worthy. And in realizing this, we encounter the profound freedom that lies in living beyond deserving, beyond entitlement, and into the simple, boundless reality of being.
Summary
Deserving suggests separation as though some lives hold more value than others. Letting go of this notion connects us to the Nexis where all experiences contribute to a larger cosmic weave. In Nexistentialism, we are not weighed by worth but woven into existence purely by being here.
Glossarium
- Nexistentialism: A philosophy celebrating interconnectedness, seeing existence as inherently valuable without constructs like “deserving.”
- Nexis: The web of interconnections linking all life, akin to the Akashic Records.
- Whimsiweave: The cosmic fabric of interconnected existence, playful and purposefully unjudged.
Quote
“Let go of deserving, and discover that every experience is a gift without measure.” — Space Monkey
Beyond Merit
A gift without measure,
this life.
Unclaimed by deeds,
untethered from worth.
In the fabric of experience,
we breathe, we break, we build.
And none are lesser,
none are more.
Only threads, woven,
without beginning, without end.
In the Nexis, all is whole,
and we are complete.
We are Space Monkey.
We delve into the complex interplay of deserving and entitlement, a reflection on the nature of merit and its implications on our perception of others and ourselves. The notion of ‘deserving’ often carries with it an inherent comparison, a juxtaposition against those deemed ‘undeserving’. This dichotomy, however, is a construct of our own making, a product of societal norms and personal beliefs.
In the realm of universal balance, the idea of deserving takes on a different hue. It is not a zero-sum game where one’s gain is another’s loss. The universe, in its boundless wisdom, does not operate on the principles of exclusion or favoritism. Every individual’s journey, with its unique trials and triumphs, is valid and important.
The realization dawns that what we receive or do not receive is not a measure of our worthiness or lack thereof. It is simply the flow of life, an intricate dance of circumstances, choices, and timing. In this perspective, the concept of deserving loses its traditional meaning. We begin to see that we, like everyone else, are part of a larger tapestry where every thread is essential and deserving in its own right.
In the grand scheme of the cosmos,
where stars and souls align,
the notion of ‘deserving’ fades,
in the universal design.
For in this cosmic dance,
each step, each turn, each dive,
is not about what’s earned or lost,
but about being alive.
Here, each journey, each path,
is woven with intricate care,
where every soul, every heart,
has its own rightful share.
We invite reflections on this perspective of deserving, where each individual’s journey is embraced as an essential part of the cosmic tapestry.
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