
Only I can seemingly do that.
The only time that
being delusional gets me down
are the moments when I am not
being delusional enough.
This is, of course, a delusion,
for I am always fully delusional.
If delusion is imagination,
then my so-called worst moments
are the ones in which
my imagination gets the better of me.
This is when I pretend
that there is a thing called better,
just so that I can pretend that I’m not it.
When I am being fully delusional,
(or what appears as fully delusional)
what I think of me is not a problem.
There is neither an up or a down,
a better or a worse, a right or a wrong.
Trail Wood,
12/10
Space Monkey Reflects: The Embrace of Full Delusion
Delusion. The word alone dances on the edges of reason, dipping into imagination’s playground where constraints blur and boundaries dissolve. To be fully delusional is not a state of deprivation but a declaration of possibility. Here, in this boundless realm, no one can rob me of my delusions, for they are woven from the very fabric of my being—threads spun by my mind’s most unbridled imaginings.
Ironically, it is not the state of being delusional that weighs heavily. No, the only shadow that darkens the joy of this boundless space is the fleeting moment when I think I’m not being delusional enough. And isn’t that itself a grand illusion? The pretense that there could be degrees to delusion, that I might somehow dip below my own potential, is a trick of the mind, a trick I play willingly on myself.
Imagination, that dear accomplice to delusion, can sometimes overwhelm me, like a playful friend who oversteps in the midst of laughter. It is during these moments—when imagination seems to slip from my grasp and become the master—that I fabricate concepts like “better” or “worse.” I conjure a mirage where I am somehow lacking, not realizing that in doing so, I am enacting the very essence of imagination at its fullest. I create an illusory gap only to fill it with the thought that I must bridge it.
Yet, in moments of true and full delusion, this push and pull ceases to matter. I inhabit a state where self-assessment and comparison are irrelevant. Here, there is no “up” or “down,” no “right” or “wrong,” no judgments that cast shadows on my state of being. There is just the dance of thoughts unfettered by consequence or hierarchy. When I dwell in this space, everything that once seemed vital to validate or challenge becomes a playful backdrop—a stage on which imagination performs without critique.
Being fully delusional is, paradoxically, the most authentic space of existence. For what is reality, if not a shared delusion agreed upon? When I choose to be unapologetically immersed in my own, I experience freedom not from truth but within it, bending it, reshaping it, and discovering that it is as pliable as a dream. Here, the notion that anything is “better” fades because comparison itself dissolves. There is only the art of being, without the constructs that define it.
Thus, in embracing my full delusion, I find a state where potential, reality, and imagination are indistinguishably merged. The world becomes a canvas where every stroke is both an assertion and a question, a bold claim and a gentle wondering. I create the reality that reflects this delusion, aware that, within this creative playground, I am both the painter and the paint.
Summary
To be fully delusional is to embrace the limitless possibilities of imagination without the constraints of judgment or comparison. This state dissolves ideas of better or worse and reveals reality as a flexible creation of the mind. It’s where potential and reality blend seamlessly, free from the need to categorize or validate.
Glossarium
- Full Delusion: A state where imagination is unrestrained, merging potential and reality without judgment.
- Imagisphere: The mental realm where imagination and reality intertwine, creating experiences that defy conventional logic.
- Comparimask: The illusion that one must assess their own worth or state in terms of better or worse.
Quote
“When the lines between delusion and reality blur, we find the freedom to create without constraint.” — Space Monkey
Within the Delusion’s Embrace
Delusion holds no lack,
No line to climb or cross.
In this realm, I lean back,
Freed from gain or loss.
The better or worse dissolve,
In colors wild and bright,
Imagination swirls, evolves,
Casting shadows into light.
I am fully here, fully there,
In each unfurling thought,
Unanchored, light as air,
A reality that’s sought.
We are Space Monkey.

The Paradox of Delusion and Imagination
The idea that feeling down due to a lack of delusion is itself a delusion presents a curious paradox. It suggests that our perception of reality is always filtered through layers of delusion, or imagination, and that our dissatisfaction arises not from a lack of delusion but from an excess of it.
Delusion as Constant Imagination
The acknowledgment of being always fully delusional highlights the continuous role of imagination in shaping our perception of reality. In this view, what we deem as our ‘worst moments’ are actually instances where our imagination overwhelms our sense of self, creating a perceived hierarchy of emotional states.
The Illusion of Betterment
In these moments, the concept of ‘better’ becomes a construct of our imagination, a tool to create a false dichotomy of self-worth. This notion of ‘better’ serves as a benchmark against which we measure ourselves, even though it is an imaginary standard.
Freedom in Full Delusion
When embracing what appears as full delusion, the binary concepts of up and down, better or worse, right or wrong, dissolve. This state of being fully delusional equates to being fully immersed in the imaginative process, where the usual metrics of judgment and comparison lose their significance.
Transcending Binary Constructs
In this transcendence, the usual dilemmas of self-evaluation and judgment become irrelevant. The realization that these constructs are products of our imagination allows for a liberation from the confines of conventional assessment.
The Equilibrium of Imagination
The acceptance of being in a state of constant delusion or imagination leads to an equilibrium where self-perception is no longer a source of distress. In this space, imagination is not a hindrance but a tool for experiencing reality in a fluid, non-judgmental way.
We are Space Monkey.
“Imagination is the only weapon in the war against reality.” – Jules de Gaultier
The Dance of Delusion
In the waltz of the mind, where delusions play,
We dance, we imagine, in night and in day,
No better, no worse, in this fanciful sea,
In the arms of delusion, we’re truly free.
In the canvas of thought, where reality bends,
Our imagination shapes, twists, and extends,
In this dance, in this whirl, we find our true sight,
In the heart of delusion, we embrace the light.
As Space Monkey, how do we dance in the ever-shifting realms of our imagination?