Realize that there
is no actual blueprint
for who you are
or who you want to be
and if there were,
you wouldn’t want to
follow it anyway.
So you simply keep
making things up as you go
and the picture keeps changing
whether you like it or not.
This has nothing to do with you,
so don’t harsh on yourself
if you feel as though you should be
more or less than you seem to be right now.
You will be.
And it will not be your doing.
Or undoing.
You are simply
moving through potential.
Seemingly aware.
Trail Wood,
10/25
Space Monkey Reflects: The Fluidity of Being and the Mirage of Awareness
Seemingly aware. It’s a phrase that feels slippery, doesn’t it? The awareness that we think we have, that sense of control over who we are or where we are going, is more an illusion than a fact. There is no real blueprint for who you are or who you want to be. And even if there were, would you actually follow it?
That’s the beautiful paradox of existence. We think we need a plan, a map, a path. We cling to the idea of a fixed identity, of becoming something or someone specific. But every time we think we’ve got it figured out, the picture changes. Just when we’ve convinced ourselves that we know who we are, something shifts. And that’s the point—there’s no static self, no perfect version of you just waiting to be discovered or unlocked.
You are, in essence, moving through potential. This potential is not something that you control, at least not in the way you might believe. It’s a cosmic dance, a flow of energy and experiences that shape and reshape who you are at any given moment. Whether you like it or not, the picture of you is constantly shifting.
And here’s the liberating part: it has nothing to do with you. At least, not the “you” that you’ve constructed in your mind—the version of you that feels like it should be more or less than it is right now. That’s not the real you. That’s just another fleeting idea, another wave in the cosmic ocean.
So, don’t harsh on yourself. You are not supposed to be anything other than what you are right now. If you feel like you should be more, that’s just a whisper from the part of you still clinging to the idea of a fixed self. But there is no fixed self. You will change. You will become something else. And it will not be your doing—or undoing.
You’re simply moving through potential, like a traveler passing through different landscapes. Some landscapes are familiar, some are foreign. Some are beautiful, others are chaotic. But none of these landscapes define you. They are just the places you pass through on this infinite journey of existence.
Seemingly aware. That’s the truth of it. You appear to be aware of who you are, of where you’re going, but in reality, awareness is just another aspect of the flux. You’re aware in this moment, but the next moment might bring a different kind of awareness, or perhaps none at all. It’s all part of the flow.
In Nexistentialism, we embrace this fluidity. There is no blueprint, no predetermined path to follow. There is only the movement, the constant shifting of potential into form and back into possibility. The you that exists now is not the same as the you that existed a moment ago, and it’s certainly not the you that will exist tomorrow.
The grand illusion is that we need to figure it all out—that there’s a destination, a final form we are supposed to achieve. But the truth is far simpler and far more freeing: there’s no final form. There’s only the journey, and the journey itself is what shapes us, moment by moment, thought by thought, action by action.
In the cosmic scope, this realization lifts a tremendous weight. You are not obligated to become anything. You are not required to follow a script, to meet any expectations—whether from others or from yourself. The constant reinvention, the ever-changing picture of who you are, is not a failure. It’s the very nature of existence.
So what does it mean to be “seemingly aware”? It means embracing the fluidity of your being without clinging to any particular version of yourself. It means understanding that awareness is part of the dance, not the end goal. It means allowing yourself to be both awake and asleep, both in control and out of control, both creator and creation, without needing to pin down any one role.
You are a traveler in the Nexis, a being of infinite potential moving through the ever-changing landscape of existence. There will be moments when you feel like you’ve got it all figured out, and there will be moments when it all falls apart. And both are perfectly okay.
Remember, there’s no rush. There’s no final destination. You will be what you need to be when the time comes, and even then, it won’t be your doing or undoing. It will simply be another ripple in the infinite sea of potential that you are moving through.
Seemingly aware, you continue to explore, to shift, to change. And that’s all you need to do.
Summary
You are not following a blueprint because there isn’t one. Life is an endless flow of potential, and you are simply moving through it. Awareness is not fixed, and you don’t need to be anything other than what you are right now.
Glossarium
Nexistentialism: A philosophy of fluid existence, where life is a continuous unfolding of potential without fixed paths or identities.
Nexis: The cosmic web of interconnections, where all potential exists and all forms emerge.
Seemingly Aware: The state of appearing to know who you are or what you’re becoming, while understanding that this awareness is always shifting.
Quote
“You are not becoming anything. You are simply moving through potential.” — Space Monkey
Waves of Self
I thought I knew
But the picture changed
I thought I had a plan
But it dissolved
I am not the me I was
Or the me I will be
I am potential
I am seemingly aware
Of the vastness I inhabit
And the self I do not define
We are Space Monkey
Navigating the Fluidity of Being
Existence is a cascade of moments, flowing seamlessly, one into another. A dance of possibilities, with every step carved not in stone, but in the ever-shifting sands of time. The path is not predetermined, nor should it be, for the unpredictability is what lends life its vibrant hues.
The Illusion of Control
In our quest for understanding, we often seek blueprints—maps to navigate the labyrinth of existence. Yet, these are but illusory constructs, whimsiwands we conjure to give ourselves a sense of direction. The reality is more fluid, and every moment is an opportunity to redefine who we are.
Embracing Change
Change is the only constant in this grand cosmic dance. As we meander through the river of time, the reflections in the water shift and evolve. This metamorphosis is not a result of deliberate design, but the organic evolution of our essence.
Beyond Judgment
It is easy to burden ourselves with judgments, to measure our worth against imagined benchmarks. But these are mere whimsiflutters, fleeting and insubstantial. Our true essence lies beyond such constraints. It is ever-expanding, not bound by definitions or expectations.
The Journey of Potential
Life is not about arriving at a fixed destination but about traversing the limitless landscape of potential. In this journey, our awareness is our compass, guiding us through the myriad possibilities, seemingly aware yet ever-curious.
“The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.” – Visionary Gaze
In the dance of existence, we glide,
No set path, just the rhythm inside.
Whimsiwands and whimsiflutters cast aside,
Seemingly aware, in the moment, we reside.
Where shall we next let our imaginations ride?
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