You feel “isolated.”
You feel “no one gets you.”
You feel “alone.”
You feel that what others
need from you
is getting in the way
of what you need
from yourself.
You also feel that,
“yourself,”
whatever that means,
is not exactly
what you want it to be,
and you doubt that
you can make yourself
into “yourself”
all by yourself.
This is a sign
that you are still
focused externally
for you cannot be
“alone”
or “misunderstood”
or “oppressed”
or “lacking”
without a reference point
that you do not consider
“yourself.”
Yet these reference points
that you do not consider “yourself”
are mere perceptions
you create “yourself.”
A paradox.
So the question is
what is outside
and what is within
and where is the “you”
in relation to all of this?
You are uncertain on all counts,
and uncertainty automatically
leads to doubt for you.
These doubts cut off
your sense of community,
both within and without,
before it even starts,
leaving you feeling
“isolated”
“alone”
with the feeling that
“no one gets you.”
But perhaps in reality
is is YOU who do not get you,
it is YOU who are not getting the signals
for you do not allow yourself
to pick up your inner telephone.
Thinking.
Thinking.
Thinking.
To be comfortable in not thinking,
this is the state of grace
for which you strive.
To remove your projections,
your interpretations,
your automatic perceptions
is to remove the blanket
that covers your parrot cage.
No longer trapped
in a feedback loop
repeating all you know
which is mostly things
you don’t want to know.
Remove your projections,
lift your veil,
and you are
no longer trapped
in your “parrotdox.”
Paulie want a cracker?
Space Monkey Reflects:
In the solitude of our minds, we often find ourselves ensnared in a ‘parrotdox,’ a clever play on words that encapsulates the essence of feeling trapped within the confines of our self-imposed limitations and perceptions. This paradox, where one is both the captor and the captive, reflects the intricate dance between the self and the myriad reflections it perceives as “other.”
The feeling of isolation, the sense of being misunderstood, the impression of being alone, all stem from an externalized focus. We seek validation, understanding, and fulfillment from outside sources, forgetting that these qualities spring from within. It is a peculiar conundrum — we are never truly alone, yet in seeking companionship beyond ourselves, we reinforce the very solitude we aim to escape.
Our perceptions of not being “enough,” of being “oppressed” or “lacking,” are projections of our internal dialogue onto the canvas of the world. These perceptions create the bars of our parrot cage, confining us to a loop of repeated thoughts and experiences, many of which are laden with dissatisfaction and yearning for something different.
Yet, the key to this cage lies within the very essence we struggle to understand — “yourself.” The realization that the reference points we consider “not ourselves” are, in fact, creations of our own mind, unveils the paradox. The delineation between what is outside and what is within blurs, revealing that the “you” in relation to all of this is both the creator and the observer of your reality.
Uncertainty and doubt, while seemingly formidable foes, are but signposts pointing towards the need for inner connection. They signal a disconnection not with the community or the external world but with the core of our being. The sensation of being “isolated” or feeling that “no one gets you” arises not from a lack of external understanding but from an internal estrangement from oneself.
The journey towards resolving this ‘parrotdox’ involves ceasing the endless cycle of thinking, analyzing, and projecting. It calls for a state of grace where one is comfortable in not thinking, in simply being. This does not mean abandoning thought entirely but rather finding a balance where thoughts serve as tools rather than masters.
Lifting the veil of projections, interpretations, and automatic perceptions allows light to flood the previously darkened corners of our parrot cage. This act of liberation does not merely open the door but dissolves the cage entirely, freeing us from the feedback loop of unwanted thoughts and perceptions.
In this newfound freedom, we find that the signals we believed were absent were always there, waiting for us to pick up our inner telephone. The dialogue we long for with others begins with the dialogue within. By embracing the paradox and recognizing our role in its creation, we step into a space of self-acceptance and understanding.
No longer confined by our ‘parrotdox,’ we are free to explore the vastness of our inner landscape, discovering that the cracker of enlightenment we sought was always in our possession. It is in this realization that we find true connection, both with ourselves and with the world around us.
Summary
The ‘parrotdox’ of feeling isolated and misunderstood stems from an external focus and self-imposed perceptions. Recognizing that these perceptions are our own creations leads to self-awareness and liberation. Embracing our inner dialogue fosters a deeper connection with ourselves, dissolving the barriers of solitude and misunderstanding.
Glossarium
- Parrotdox: A state of being trapped by one’s own perceptions and projections, creating a paradox of feeling alone and misunderstood despite being the creator of these feelings.
- Inner telephone: A metaphor for internal communication and self-reflection, highlighting the importance of listening to one’s own thoughts and emotions.
“In the silence of the cage dissolved, the parrot finds its song, a melody of self-discovery and connection that echoes beyond the confines of perceived limitations.” — Space Monkey
In the realm of thought, a cage unseen
Held by our own hands, a paradox keen
Where shadows dance, and echoes call
In the mind’s vast hall, we build and fall
But when the veil lifts, and sight is clear
The cage dissolves, and with it, fear
For within us lies the key, the door
To realms unbound, forever more
In the quietude, a voice within
Calls to the soul, to begin again
To embrace the silence, the space between
Where true selves are found, and seen
No longer parrots in a loop confined
But creators of the worlds, we find
In each breath, a chance to be
Beyond the cage, forever free
We are Space Monkey
It seems like you are struggling with feelings of isolation and a lack of understanding from others. However, it’s important to recognize that these feelings are often a result of our own perceptions and projections. It’s possible that you are not fully understanding or accepting yourself, which can lead to doubts and a sense of disconnection from others.
To overcome these feelings, it may be helpful to practice self-reflection and introspection. Try to identify any negative thought patterns or beliefs that may be holding you back from feeling more connected and fulfilled. You can also try reaching out to others and opening up about your feelings, as building connections with others can often provide a sense of belonging and support.
Remember, it’s okay to not have all the answers and to feel uncertain at times. Allow yourself to be vulnerable and embrace the process of self-discovery. With time and effort, you can create a more fulfilling and authentic life for yourself.