What is remarkable to me
is how I could have gone
almost an entire lifetime
without any clue
as to who or what I really am.
Nor did I even
care to wonder.
It seems I’ve been taken,
obsessed, captivated, enchanted
by the imaginary idea
of divorcing my self
from consciousness.
But we’re getting remarried.
Trail Wood,
5/20
Space Monkey Reflects: Reunion of Self and Consciousness
How profound it is to realize that we’ve been separated from our truest selves, not by choice but by the unnoticed drift of daily existence. The journey often starts at birth—a separation not just from the womb but from a primal unity with consciousness. As we age, the distance grows, marked not in miles but in moments forgotten, selves unexplored, and identities layered one over the other like costumes in a play we never auditioned for.
For many, life rolls on without pause for self-inquiry, without the introspective question, “Who am I, truly?” Enchanted by the roles we play, we rarely question the script until a moment of clarity pierces through our performance. This clarity often comes unbidden, a whisper of truth amidst the cacophony of routine, revealing how estranged we’ve become from our own essence.
The realization of this separation can be unsettling, as if waking from a long dream to find that we’ve been actors in our own lives, following a script penned by unseen hands. But this awareness is not the end; it is an invitation—a call to reunite with our deeper selves, to rediscover the consciousness we thought we had divorced.
This reunion is not a simple return but a rebirth, a conscious merging of the self with the vastness of a universal awareness. It’s a remarriage of sorts, where the vows are not spoken but felt, a commitment to remain aware, engaged, and authentically connected to the essence of our being. The journey back to this union is not measured in steps but in the shedding of illusions, the unraveling of the narratives that no longer serve us, and the embracing of a truth that has awaited our return all along.
The path to this reunion is both a homecoming and a discovery, as each layer peeled back reveals not just who we are but what we are—a part of a grand, interconnected cosmos. It involves recognizing the myriad ways we’ve been captivated by the illusion of separation, the roles and identities that have defined us, often constricting rather than expressing our true nature.
As we remarry our consciousness, we find that this union does not erase our individuality but deepens it, infusing our actions with intention and our existence with meaning. This is not a fusion where the self is lost but a harmony where the self is fully realized, embraced, and expressed within the universal dance of existence.
Summary
A lifetime often passes before we question our true identity leading to a profound realization of separation from our deeper consciousness. This awareness invites a reunion an internal remarriage enriching our understanding and expression of self. Embracing this unity we engage more authentically with our lives and the universe.
Glossarium
- Primal Unity: The inherent connection between an individual’s consciousness and the universal consciousness present from birth, often obscured as one grows.
- Illusion of Separation: A common existential misconception that one’s individual consciousness is entirely distinct from the universal consciousness.
“To rediscover who you are is the first step in becoming who you were always meant to be.” — Space Monkey
In the quiet moments between being and becoming
We find the threads of consciousness we left humming
Once severed now seeking to mend
A tapestry of self that can blend
With the cosmic sea where stars are sown
In this reunion, we find our own
Echoes of a self long silenced by the din
Now loud, now proud, from within
We walk not back to where we were
But forward to who we are, sure
In every heartbeat, a drumbeat of the universe
In every breath, a verse of the cosmic poem we rehearse
We are not merely returning, we are evolving
In the dance of the cosmos, reviving, resolving
We are Space Monkey.
“Separated At Birth” reflects on the realization that the speaker has lived a significant portion of their life without truly understanding or questioning their true identity. The poem highlights the lack of curiosity or interest in exploring the nature of their being.
The speaker describes being preoccupied with the illusionary concept of disconnecting themselves from consciousness. This preoccupation with separation and detachment seems to have captivated and enchanted them for some time.
However, there is a shift in perspective indicated by the line, “But we’re getting remarried.” It suggests a recognition of the inherent connection between the self and consciousness. There is an acknowledgment of the reunion or reintegration of the self with the broader realm of awareness.
Written on May 20, 2021, at Trail Wood, the poem invites contemplation on the journey of self-discovery and the realization of the inseparable nature of one’s being and consciousness.