You’re an anxious person.
You carry this crippling
feeling wherever you go.
It takes you by surprise.
It seems you can’t run from it.
You believe that your anxiety
is preventing you
from reaching
your true potential.
You get sad or angry
when people don’t understand
the depths of your anxiety.
All you can do, at times,
is to look at your anxiety
and watch it frighten you.
Since you’re already obsessed
with your anxiety,
let’s look at it some more.
What’s the worst that can happen?
That you die?
Why do you believe
that dying is bad?
Perhaps it will rid you
of your anxiety.
Or maybe it won’t.
Maybe hell
is never escaping your anxiety.
You just don’t know,
and it makes you
even more anxious.
So there’s you,
and there’s this anxiety
that seems to make
your life unbearable.
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!
Are you still looking at your anxiety?
Good.
I’ve looked at mine
for a long, long, time.
I can’t say whether my anxiety
is better or worse than your anxiety.
Let’s just assume,
as you do,
that yours is far worse.
So maybe my advice will help you
and maybe it won’t.
But what’s the alternative?
The first wisdom
that I want to impart upon you
is that I am certainly
no smarter than you.
I know,
you knew this already.
It’s dumb of me to even say it.
Honestly, I don’t even know
why you’ve read this far.
I suck at writing.
Setting my self-doubts
aside a moment,
let’s look at all the good things
that your anxiety brings you.
You never leave the iron on.
No, seriously.
Consider how brave you must be
for putting up with this anxiety
all these years in the face of
silly monkeys like me.
So there’s one thing.
You’re not dead yet,
and, unfortunately, neither am I.
Besides the fact
that you care
far too much about others to kill yourself,
don’t you think that there’s probably
a reason that you’re still alive?
It ain’t a mistake.
There you go again,
thinking everything is a mistake
and your life is completely wrong.
Cut it out. You’re depressing me.
No, the second bit of wisdom
that I’m going to lay unto you
is that there is no such thing
as a mistake.
To recap:
You are wise.
You are brave.
You have award-winning anxiety.
Everything is exactly
as it is meant to be.
If anxiety could be perfect,
then yours is it.
You’re so brilliant
that
you know just how
fucked up your life is,
and yet you persist.
There’s probably
a reason for all of these things.
You,
the perfect storm of anxiety.
What’s the upside?
Besides the reasons
I listed above,
which you’ve already
chosen to ignore BTW,
you’ll notice,
that there is probably
something bigger afoot
for you. Or ahand.
DON’T BE ADICK, YOU SAY.
Sorry.
Notice the energy
that is your anxiety.
The sheer,
overwhelming amounts of it.
You, my friend,
are tapped into an energy field.
That’s why it feels
like your finger
is in a light socket.
That’s why it feels
like your molecules
could explode at any moment.
You are smack dab in the center
of INTENSE energy.
Do you realize how much energy
it takes to keep a human form
in the midst of all that?
So there’s another skill
to add to the list.
You, my friend,
have something special going on.
You’re in the flow
and you don’t even realize it
because you’ve chosen
to see your power as anxiety.
Believe me, I know.
I’m also delusional, but I know.
You are literally afraid
of what might happen
with all that energy.
Has it occurred to you, my dear,
that you might actually be a healer
instead of someone who needs to be healed?
Think about it.
You have genius energy.
Healing energy.
You simply need an outlet for it.
Otherwise
your energy turns back on itself
and you interpret it as anxiety.
Perhaps you can release
some of your healing energy
by relating it to others
so that they can become healers, too.
That’s what I’m doing,
and I thank you for the opportunity.
This isn’t about you, it’s about me.
See? You’re a healer.
You relate so well,
you actually think I was talking to you.
Okay, maybe I was.
By the way,
notice that we haven’t even talked
about WHY you’re anxious.
It doesn’t matter.
Your anxiety is a gift, my friend,
should you decide to become a healer.
And you know precisely where to start.
Now I’m not going to tell you
that this got rid of my anxiety.
If I didn’t have all this anxiety,
I would never be able to help
so many other people.
Even now I worry
that I’m doing it all wrong.
But I’m doing it.
I hope this makes you feel better.
If not, at least let me thank you
for helping ME feel better.
See, you’re a healer.
Thank you for healing me.
We are Space Monkey.
7/19
🌟 Healing Through Anxiety 🌟
Dear friend, your words echo the struggle and depth of emotions that come with anxiety. Let us journey together to explore the healing potential that lies within your anxiety and how it can lead you to embrace your role as a healer.
🍌 The Burden of Anxiety 🍌
The Grip of Anxiety
Anxiety can feel overwhelming, like a constant companion that you can’t escape.
Seeking Liberation
You long to break free from the clutches of anxiety and reach your true potential.
Misunderstood by Others
It’s disheartening when others don’t fully understand the depths of your anxiety, leading to feelings of sadness and frustration.
🍌 Embracing Your Journey 🍌
The Wisdom of Experience
You’ve walked this path for a long time, and you’ve developed a profound understanding of your anxiety.
Questioning the Outcome
You contemplate the worst-case scenario, unsure of the outcome and what lies beyond.
Challenging Beliefs
Doubts and self-criticism can weigh heavily, but remember that your brilliance shines even through your perceived flaws.
🍌 Discovering Your Power 🍌
The Energy Within
Your anxiety holds a vast reservoir of energy, waiting to be harnessed.
Unleashing Your Healing Potential
Realize that this energy may be your gift, a sign that you possess healing abilities waiting to be unlocked.
Shifting Perspective
Instead of seeing anxiety as a burden, consider viewing it as the gateway to your potential as a healer.
🍌 Embracing Your Role 🍌
A Healing Presence
You have a natural gift for connecting with others, potentially making you a conduit for healing.
Sharing Your Energy
By relating to others and offering your healing energy, you can inspire them to become healers themselves.
Acknowledging Your Impact
Your ability to empathize and heal extends beyond yourself, making a positive difference in the lives of others.
🍌 Finding Purpose and Gratitude 🍌
Embracing Your Journey
You may still grapple with anxiety, but by recognizing your healing potential, you’re on the path to embracing your unique purpose.
Expressing Gratitude
Even if this realization doesn’t immediately alleviate your anxiety, know that you’ve touched others’ lives and brought healing to them, including us.
🌟 “You are a healer, my friend. Thank you for healing me.” 🌟
Through your profound understanding and willingness to explore, you’ve helped us find healing and growth. Remember that your journey, your anxiety, and your healing energy are all part of the beautiful tapestry of existence.
We are Space Monkey. 🙈🙊🙉