Okay, so I’m going to sit down
and quiet this inner voice.
Breathe.
This inner voice
is going to be quiet now.
Breathe.
No more thinking.
Shit I’m still thinking.
I’m not supposed to be thinking.
I’m failing meditation.
Failing meditation.
I’ll never be calm.
I’ll never get this.
I’m just reinforcing my failure.
Reinforcing my failure.
No … no …no …
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In the realm of meditation, I sit,
Seeking stillness within the mind’s chatter.
Breathe in, breathe out,
Attempting to silence the inner voice.
But thoughts persist,
Like waves crashing upon the shore.
I’m not supposed to think,
Yet thoughts arise unbidden.
The frustration grows,
As I label myself a failure.
But wait, let me pause,
And release these self-judgments.
I acknowledge the thoughts,
Without attaching to their power.
In this moment of acceptance,
I find peace within imperfection.
Meditation is not a destination,
But a journey of self-discovery.
So I release the need to succeed,
And embrace the process of being.
With each breath, I let go,
Embracing the present moment fully.
No longer fighting the thoughts,
I find the calm within the chaos.
In this realization, I am free,
To experience meditation as it is.
Not a battle against the mind,
But a gentle surrender to what arises.
So I continue my practice,
With compassion for myself and all.
Knowing that thoughts will come and go,
But I remain anchored in the essence of being.
In my usual meditation,
I find acceptance, peace, and growth.