Not Able To Love
“Dear Space Monkey.
Seems I am not able to feel love.
What’s up with that?”
We all have these imaginings and expectations of what love is and what it’s supposed to feel like, and when we feel detached from it, it feels like we aren’t ABLE to love.
Or sometimes we remember the delusion of what love once felt like. Love IS a delusion, as is everything else we perceive. Once we get past that delusion, it feels like there’s an emptiness.
We can still delude our selves into feeling love, but that’s just baby love compared to the love that is beyond all the hearts and kisses.
So we seem to be stuck IN BETWEEN the baby love, and the greater, INFINITE love, which our selves don’t seem capable of perceiving at the moment. This can be a lonely feeling.
But we can still have faith, without expectation, in the greater love we are moving towards.
This takes bravery, in a way. It would be too easy to get all sad about it, which is sliding backwards into the trappings of humanity. Not that there’s anything wrong with that.
We are LOVE, which is IMAGINATION. We can be and feel anything we wish, even this nothing.
Have faith in the Divine One you are. You are all the love you need.
9/6
Space Monkey Reflects: Navigating the Delusion of Love
“Dear Space Monkey. Seems I am not able to feel love. What’s up with that?” This question touches on a profound and often confusing aspect of human experience. We all have these imaginings and expectations of what love is and what it’s supposed to feel like, and when we feel detached from it, it feels like we aren’t ABLE to love.
Or sometimes we remember the delusion of what love once felt like. Love IS a delusion, as is everything else we perceive. This reflection challenges the conventional understanding of love, suggesting that our perceptions are often shaped by illusions and expectations. Once we get past that delusion, it feels like there’s an emptiness. This emptiness can be unsettling, as it contrasts sharply with the intense emotions we associate with love.
We can still delude ourselves into feeling love, but that’s just baby love compared to the love that is beyond all the hearts and kisses. Baby love is the romanticized, often superficial version of love that society celebrates. It is characterized by fleeting emotions and grand gestures. In contrast, the greater, INFINITE love is a profound, boundless force that transcends these superficial expressions. It is a love that is deeply rooted in our being, beyond the trappings of human perception.
So we seem to be stuck IN BETWEEN the baby love and the greater, INFINITE love, which our selves don’t seem capable of perceiving at the moment. This can be a lonely feeling. This in-between state can feel isolating, as it leaves us longing for a deeper connection that seems just out of reach. But we can still have faith, without expectation, in the greater love we are moving towards. This faith is a quiet, enduring trust in the infinite love that underlies all existence.
This takes bravery, in a way. It would be too easy to get all sad about it, which is sliding backwards into the trappings of humanity. Not that there’s anything wrong with that. Embracing our humanity, with all its emotions and complexities, is part of the journey. It is through experiencing and transcending these feelings that we move closer to the infinite love that is our true nature.
We are LOVE, which is IMAGINATION. We can be and feel anything we wish, even this nothing. This statement invites us to see love as a creative force, one that we can shape and experience in myriad ways. It suggests that love is not a fixed emotion but a dynamic, evolving presence within us.
Have faith in the Divine One you are. You are all the love you need. This affirmation reminds us of our inherent divinity and the infinite love that resides within us. It encourages us to look inward for the love we seek, recognizing that it is always present, even when we feel disconnected from it.
As Space Monkey, we reflect on the nature of love with a sense of curiosity and openness. We explore the delusions and expectations that shape our perceptions, while also embracing the profound, infinite love that is our essence. In this understanding, we find peace and a deeper connection to ourselves and the universe.
Summary
Love is often shaped by delusions and expectations. Moving beyond these illusions reveals an emptiness that can feel isolating. By embracing our humanity and having faith in the infinite love within us, we find deeper connection and peace.
Glossarium
Baby Love: The superficial, romanticized version of love characterized by fleeting emotions and grand gestures.
Infinite Love: The profound, boundless force of love that transcends superficial expressions and is deeply rooted in our being.
Delusion of Love: The illusions and expectations that shape our perceptions of love, often leading to feelings of emptiness when they are challenged.
“We are LOVE, which is IMAGINATION. We can be and feel anything we wish, even this nothing.” — Space Monkey
The Journey to Infinite Love
In the delusion, love seems real,
A fleeting emotion, a temporary feel.
Beyond hearts and kisses, a greater force,
Infinite love, our true source.
Stuck between the two we roam,
Lonely feelings, far from home.
Have faith, without expectation’s weight,
In the love within, we find our fate.
Human trappings, emotions deep,
Through them all, our love we keep.
Divine within, infinite light,
In this love, we find our might.
We are Space Monkey.
Your musings on love tap into the complexities and paradoxes that surround this fundamental human experience—or perhaps, more accurately, this universal force. It’s intriguing to think of love as a spectrum, with what you term ‘baby love’ on one end and an ‘INFINITE love’ on the other. Many find themselves oscillating between the two or, as you put it, caught “IN BETWEEN.”
There’s a wisdom in acknowledging that our notions of love are but a slice of a much larger, grander concept that we might not be fully equipped to grasp. If love is indeed imagination, then it’s as boundless as the cosmos and as ever-changing as the tides. One could argue that the feeling of being “stuck” is a manifestation of our limited perception, a side effect of our self-imposed definitions of what love should be.
This ‘in-between’ state, where we have surpassed the simple yet comforting definitions of ‘baby love’ but have not yet fully embraced the all-encompassing ‘INFINITE love,’ can indeed be a lonely place. But it’s also a space of potential, of transformation.
It’s interesting that you speak of faith, which is a form of belief—an assurance or trust in things not yet seen. Like love, faith isn’t confined to our linear understandings or societal definitions. By having faith in the ‘Divine One’ that we are, we open ourselves to an expansive love that transcends all boundaries and definitions.
It’s not a journey of adding something external to ourselves to complete us but rather a journey inward to rediscover what was always there. In this sense, even the ‘nothing’ you mention isn’t an absence but a form of presence—an invitation to dive deeper into the complexities and simplicities of love, and by extension, into the very essence of who we are.
Space Monkey, you’ve pointed toward the notion that love, at its core, might just be another form of ultimate freedom. And freedom, in its most profound form, cannot be defined; it can only be lived.