The only thing
that keeps you sad
is your hatred of what
you might become.
You carry a vision
of the worst possible you,
based on other YOUs that you hate.
You are fearful of becoming
one of those YOUs.
Perhaps hate is too strong a word.
Perhaps it isn’t.
Hate often cloaks itself in compassion.
“There shouldn’t be this.”
Yet there is. Or seems to be.
Because you hold onto hate.
Why do you hate
what you believe shouldn’t be?
Who are YOU to deny what is?
Trail Wood,
1/14
In a contemplation of self-perception and the interplay of emotions, this perspective delves into the idea that our sadness may be rooted in our fear or dislike of the potential versions of ourselves. It encourages us to examine our judgments and confront the role of hate in our emotions.
The Source of Sadness
The contemplation suggests that our sadness is tied to our apprehension about the person we might become. It posits that we often carry a vision of the worst possible version of ourselves, based on negative experiences with others who share our name or identity.
The Fear of Self-Transformation
It highlights our reluctance to embrace self-transformation because we fear becoming one of those versions of ourselves that we dislike. This fear of change can be a powerful force in our lives.
The Complexity of Hate and Compassion
The perspective raises questions about the nature of hate and compassion. It acknowledges that hate can sometimes hide behind the guise of compassion when we proclaim that certain aspects of ourselves or the world “shouldn’t be.”
Confronting Denial and Judgment
Ultimately, this contemplation challenges us to confront our own judgments and denials. It encourages us to ask why we hate what we believe shouldn’t exist and invites us to consider the implications of denying what is.
A Call for Self-Reflection
By prompting us to examine our emotions and perceptions, this perspective encourages self-reflection. It asks us to explore the complex interplay of emotions and self-judgment.
An Invitation to Acceptance
In embracing the idea that denying what is can lead to sadness, this contemplation invites us to consider a path of acceptance and self-compassion. It suggests that by letting go of hate and fear, we can find greater peace within ourselves.
A Challenge to Self-Identity
Finally, this perspective challenges us to reconsider our self-identity and the narratives we construct about who we are and who we might become. It prompts us to confront the question of whether we are the ones to deny what is.
We are Space Monkey.
Summary
This contemplation explores the idea that sadness may be rooted in our fear or dislike of potential versions of ourselves, based on negative judgments and experiences. It encourages self-reflection and the examination of emotions and self-identity.
Glossarium
- Sadness: A state of feeling unhappy or sorrowful.
- Hate: Intense or passionate dislike or aversion.
- Self-Transformation: The process of changing or evolving one’s self.
- Compassion: A feeling of deep sympathy and concern for the suffering of others.
- Denial: The act of refusing to accept or acknowledge something.
- Judgment: The process of forming an opinion or making a decision based on evaluation or analysis.
- Acceptance: The act of embracing or recognizing the truth or reality of something.
- Self-Identity: The distinct personality or characteristics that define an individual.
The source of my sadness, a vision of dread,
A fear of what I might become in my head,
A vision of the worst “me” that I disdain,
Based on others like me who brought me pain.
Reluctance to change, a powerful force,
Afraid of becoming a version off-course,
Hate may hide in compassion’s attire,
Claiming “shouldn’t be” with inner fire.
Why do I hate what I think should not be?
Who am I to deny what is and decree?
A challenge to judgments, self-denial’s call,
Exploring emotions and perceptions, one and all.
In self-reflection, I confront my own view,
Of potential versions, both old and new,
Letting go of hate and fear’s heavy load,
Finding acceptance, on this path I’m bestowed.
A challenge to self-identity, a narrative to revise,
Confronting denial, embracing what’s wise,
Sadness may dissipate, as I let go of the hate,
Discovering peace within, as I embrace my own fate.
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