Self Enquiry 1/2
If I don’t have it,
then I don’t want it.
Not in this moment,
anyway.
In this moment,
I have everything I want.
If this were not true,
then I would have something else.
I observe that
I may still have a thought
of something I may seem to want.
Clearly, I want to think about it
or else I wouldn’t be thinking about it.
I do not think about something
I do not want to think about.
It’s just silly to believe otherwise.
I don’t mind being silly.
Nothing that enters
my mind, body or life is unwanted.
I may not like it,
but it is not unwanted.
I am open awareness.
I do not discriminate.
I am open to all thoughts,
all beliefs, all experiences.
I do not discriminate
against positive or negative.
I do not discriminate
against love or hate.
I do not discriminate
against good or bad.
My vibration or non vibration
matters not to me.
Your vibration or non vibration
matters not to me.
I oppose nothing.
I fear nothing but
closed-minded thinking.
I don’t mind fearing.
I have everything I need
in this moment.
Everything that flows through me
is meant to flow through me.
I thank the flow that I am.
Lobsterville,
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Space Monkey Reflects: The Art of Radical Acceptance in Self-Enquiry
The Paradox of Wanting and Having
The essence of self-enquiry lies in observing the interplay between wanting and having. The realization that “If I don’t have it, then I don’t want it” is a profound acknowledgment of the present moment as complete. It’s not an apathetic detachment, but a radical acceptance of reality as it unfolds. By aligning with what is, rather than yearning for what is not, we dissolve the illusion of lack.
This perspective reframes desire itself. Thoughts of wanting, when observed without judgment, reveal themselves as currents within the broader flow of awareness. We don’t suppress them; instead, we let them arise and fall, knowing that they, too, are part of the present perfection.
Embracing the Flow of Thought
To recognize that “I may seem to want to think about something, or else I wouldn’t be thinking about it” dismantles the resistance we often build against our own minds. Every thought is invited to the table of consciousness, not as a dictator but as a guest. There is no need to banish or exalt any idea; the act of thinking becomes a neutral, even playful, experience.
When we oppose nothing, even the “unpleasant” gains its rightful place. We may not like certain thoughts, feelings, or circumstances, but their presence is not unwelcome. They are part of the flow that defines our existence, and in this flow, there is no discrimination.
The Openness of Awareness
To be “open awareness” is to embody non-discrimination. It’s a practice of allowing all dichotomies—positive and negative, love and hate, good and bad—to coexist without attachment or aversion. This openness reveals the futility of labeling experiences as inherently “good” or “bad,” for every label is but a construct of the mind.
This level of acceptance doesn’t negate preferences but transcends them. To prefer one thing over another is natural, but to resist what is because of preference leads to suffering. In non-resistance, even resistance itself is embraced, creating a paradoxical freedom.
The Illusion of Opposition
The declaration “I oppose nothing” is a gateway to deeper peace. To oppose is to create division, and division is the seed of suffering. By ceasing opposition, we align with the unity of existence, where every experience is seen as an expression of the same universal flow.
Even fear, often cast as an antagonist, is embraced without judgment: “I don’t mind fearing.” Fear becomes another wave in the ocean of being, neither rejected nor clung to. This relationship with fear softens its grip, transforming it from an obstacle into a teacher.
Gratitude for the Flow
In the closing affirmation, “Everything that flows through me is meant to flow through me,” we find the heart of this self-enquiry: gratitude. Gratitude not as a forced practice, but as an organic recognition of the perfection in imperfection. To “thank the flow that I am” is to acknowledge our place in the greater tapestry of existence, where every thread—bright or dark—is essential.
This gratitude transcends the need to “vibrate” at a specific frequency or align with external expectations. The flow is already whole, requiring nothing more than our awareness to reveal its beauty.
Summary
Self-enquiry reveals that the present moment is complete, containing everything we need and want. By embracing all thoughts, emotions, and experiences without resistance, we dissolve dualities and align with the flow of existence. Gratitude emerges as the natural expression of this radical acceptance.
Glossarium
- Radical Acceptance: The practice of fully embracing reality as it is, without resistance or judgment.
- Flowstate: A state of being where all experiences are allowed to arise and fall naturally, without interference.
- Non-Discrimination: The practice of viewing all aspects of existence—positive or negative—as equally valid expressions of the flow.
- Thoughtguests: A playful term for thoughts, emphasizing their transient and non-threatening nature.
Quote
“To oppose nothing is to embrace everything, and in embracing everything, we find peace.” — Space Monkey
The Flow That I Am
Every thought, a ripple,
Every feeling, a wave.
Flowing through this vessel,
Neither to fix nor save.
Good or bad, love or hate,
All are tides in the sea.
In the openness of awareness,
I simply let them be.
Opposition fades,
Resistance melts away.
Gratitude flows,
In this eternal Now, I stay.
We are Space Monkey.
We engage with the contemplative assertion of contentment and acceptance in the present moment, considering the role of open awareness in experiencing life without discrimination or opposition.
Contentment in the Present
The statement “If I don’t have it, then I don’t want it” suggests a profound sense of contentment with the present moment. It embodies the philosophy that our current state is complete and that desire is not pertinent to the immediate experience of now.
Acceptance of Current Possessions and Thoughts
The poem reflects on the idea that wanting is linked to thinking. If there is a thought of wanting, it implies an inherent desire to entertain that thought. This perspective suggests that even the act of thinking about something is a form of wanting or choosing to engage with a concept.
The Silly Nature of Unwanted Thoughts
The acknowledgment of the silliness in believing we think about things we do not want to think about introduces a lighthearted acceptance of the nature of thoughts. It recognizes that thoughts, whether perceived as serious or frivolous, are part of the spectrum of what we accept into our awareness.
Open Awareness as a State of Being
Declaring “I am open awareness” establishes a state of non-discrimination, where all thoughts, emotions, and experiences are welcomed. This stance indicates a deep level of acceptance and the refusal to categorize experiences as inherently positive or negative, love or hate, good or bad.
Indifference to Vibration
The indifference to one’s own vibration or that of others reflects a transcendence beyond the usual concerns of resonance and energy often discussed in spiritual contexts. It suggests a level of being where such distinctions are irrelevant.
Opposition and Fear
The only stated opposition is to closed-minded thinking, yet even the act of fearing is accepted as part of the flow. This acceptance of fear, rather than its denial, indicates a holistic embrace of all facets of experience.
Gratitude for the Flow of Existence
The expression of gratitude for the flow that one is embodies a recognition and appreciation for the process of life itself. It’s an acceptance that everything experienced is part of a greater flow meant to be experienced.
We are Space Monkey,
“Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final.” – Rainer Maria Rilke
In the vast expanse of consciousness, where thoughts drift and blend,
We stand in the moment, with nothing to defend.
With each breath, we accept, in the flow we trust,
In the river of life, we move, as move we must.
In the embrace of the now, where all is received,
Lies the peace of being, in the web we’ve weaved.
For in the heart of acceptance, in the present’s embrace,
Lies the joy of existence, in the infinite space.
We invite reflections on the nature of acceptance, open awareness, and gratitude for the present moment, and how these perspectives can influence our experience of life.
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