People call it
“the dark night of the human soul.”
People are dramatic.
Not that there’s
anything wrong with drama.
Drama is why we’re here.
So when we lose our drama,
such as during the so-called
“dark night of the human soul,”
things can get pretty scary.
And another thing.
It’s waaaaaaay longer than a night.
My dark night is officially dark years,
dark decades, perhaps.
Had I been expecting this to be quick,
this would totally suck.
I would probably get all dramatic about it.
Fearful even.
I might tell my self that
my dark night is going horribly wrong.
And I’d be right.
The dark decades are all about
horrible wrongs and horrible rights.
So far, they seem to be
about stepping away
from the highs and lows
of human existence.
Looking at them
from a different perspective.
With space around it.
Drama seems not to like detachment.
We get to look at that.
We get to contemplate
the possibility of never
getting through the dark decades.
Being stuck
in the middle of a vast ocean
with never any shore in sight.
All we can see
are the flames rising from the past
and the fog shrouding the future.
Who knows,
we may even experience
dark lifetimes
instead
of nights or decades.
We’re out here,
in the middle of nowhere,
to contemplate uncertainty
and get comfortable with it.
There seems to be no other way
to get comfortable with Uncertainty.
Maybe there is, maybe there isn’t.
It seems pointless to even think about it.
We’re here in our life raft
with Uncertainty,
seemingly tossing in the waves.
What’s a monkey to do?
Well we certainly don’t want
to oppose Uncertainty.
Uncertainty might get mad and eat us.
So we make friends with Uncertainty.
Contemplate the benefits of Uncertainty.
It seems in our best interest
to imagine Uncertainty as a friend,
even if there’s a chance we’re wrong.
Otherwise we’re constantly
thinking about Uncertainty
and constantly fearing Uncertainty.
Why would we want to do that?
Only to feel more misery.
Not that there’s anything
wrong with misery.
What being friends with Uncertainty
amounts to is having
unconditional faith in Uncertainty.
Again, what’s the alternative?
We’re in a life boat
in the middle of nowhere.
We choose to trust
that whatever happens
with Uncertainty is meant to happen.
So we choose to enjoy
our ride with Uncertainty.
The ups and the downs.
Eventually we see
that we’re heading somewhere,
even though we still don’t know
where that somewhere is,
or what might happen
should we ever get there.
It almost doesn’t matter now.
We’re fine with Uncertainty.
Perhaps we’re even
in love with Uncertainty.
Uncertainty inspires us in so many ways.
In the open,
with no distractions,
we begin to hear our intuition.
We amaze ourselves with our imagination.
We begin to feel nothing but inspiration.
Faith, Faith. Faith.
Dare we say,
we begin to feel liberated?
This is when it seems
our dark lifetime takes a turn.
Is it really a turn?
Who knows.
Does it matter?
Not really.
We’re still seemingly alive,
just as we have been for this lifetime
and all the other lifetimes.
We may very well be eternal and immortal.
That would be cool,
but also kind of scary.
The scary is a sign
that we still have
at least a little more ways to go.
There seems to be no scary
where we are headed.
We choose to enjoy it while we have it.
We can always turn back to it.
We just keep going.
Like Space Monkeys.
P.S.
If you’re looking
for resolution
to this story . . .
there isn’t any.
Get used to it. Or not.
Conclude what you want.
You can choose to call it “hell”
and go there,
or choose to call it “enlightenment,”
and go there.
You might never get there.
Or maybe you’re there already.
You can always turn back.
But you’ll never be the same.
You never were.
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thatwhichisnot.com
The exploration of the “dark night of the human soul” and the uncertain journey it entails is a profound and introspective reflection. It acknowledges the often lengthy and challenging process of self-discovery and transformation, where one confronts the highs and lows of existence and seeks detachment from the drama that can consume us.
The concept of embracing uncertainty and making friends with it is a powerful perspective. By accepting and trusting in uncertainty, we can find peace and inspiration, allowing our intuition and imagination to guide us. It becomes a journey of faith and liberation, where we discover the depths of our being and explore the possibilities that lie ahead.
The idea that there may be no resolution or endpoint to this journey speaks to the ongoing nature of personal growth and the ever-evolving nature of our existence. It reminds us that the path itself is the destination and that we are constantly changing and evolving beings.
Ultimately, it is up to each individual to interpret and navigate their own journey, whether they perceive it as “hell” or “enlightenment.” The important aspect is to embrace the transformative process, to be open to change, and to continually strive for self-discovery and self-realization.
As Space Monkeys, we continue to explore and evolve, embracing the mysteries of life and finding inspiration in the journey itself.